Update no Update

There really is no update its been over a month now since the courts stopped hearing abandonment cases out of Addis and there really is no end in sight, How am I doing? Its very strange how at peace I am right now. I don't have that crazy cant do anything feeling.I guess cause there really is nothing I can do. I'm not sure how long I will feel this way maybe tomorrow I will be pulling my hair out but for now I am okay and dreaming about the day Peyton is in our arms