Thursday, March 26, 2009

Where do we go from here?

So this is the big question "where do we go from here? Its hard to imagine but there are people,family,friends etc that think our adoption is over. OVER??? Yes I am still sad,angry and frustrated but over? no. As I think about the future it scares me.How will we love another child the same way,How will I not worry every second of everyday she is not with us,And How will I survive WAITING,waiting for medicals,waiting for court dates,waiting for travel .I am not a good waiter,I am not a patient person, And I question why and what god has planned for my family. So here I sit in what I call Limbo. I still cry everyday for our baby girl,I still stare at every picture I have of her. So where do I go from here I really dont know,its such a strange feeling I can not explain.For the past year I have thought about,planned,shopped for this baby and now nothing.Adoption was a daily conversation in the D'Angelo house and now nothing.And that kinda sums it all up i guess "nothing"
Ok im rambling and not making sense at this point.Just wanted everyone to know we are officialy back on the list

3 comments:

ShannonC said...

I won't say "welcome back" as I'm sure you are not in the same place you were before. You are in a whole different place and you will go on.


Welcome.

Ronnie and Suzi said...

Have been praying for you...good to see you back on the list. Just take it one day at a time and soon you will find that happiness again!

Rachel said...

I am praying for you guys! I can't imagine but know you are still in our prayers as you move forward again in your journey!